This one is not meant to encourage suicide, but to alleviate some of the guilt, which contributes to depression and feelings of self-hatred: Suicide Isn’t Always Selfish.

This one I wrote about my father, who killed himself when I was eight years old.
Damned Tears.

I know how you feel when you say no one understands. You could probably tell by some of the writing on this site, that I do understand, and many people who have commented here.

You say you have everything you want, but I’d guess you don’t have everything you need, including what people need emotionally, not just materially.

I have tried meds and psychotherapy, but longer do either. I’m having the best luck so far with meditation. What works for some people doesn’t work for others, however, but I’d encourage you to look into getting a book on meditation from the library, or purchasing one (The first one I purchased was called “Meditation for Dummies.”) You can also find meditation resources online; I’d recommend Jane’s blog at http://intentions.wordpress.com/ as a starting point. Her blog is called “Bipolar Recovery.” Her site has been an inspiration and encouragement to me.

Meditation is not an instant cure, but the immediate effect you could get from it is hope.

If you can’t find the support and understanding you need from your friends and family at the present time, I suppose the next best alternative is online forums or the like. You might find what you need from some of the blogs and sites I’ve linked to on this site.

I’m not a therapist and have no formal education in health care or the mental health field.